Devil, take it easy, it will be okay and make sense one day.
Don't go out on a whim and do something you will regret later in your life, it isn't worth it.
Take a deep breath, take another (don't forget to exhale!)
Just slow down.. you're going to be just fine
Find something to do to get your mind off the subject, mow your lawn, take a walk.. just plleeeaese don't do anything stupid!
Make music! Heck, I still listen to that song you made and Orion put on his website, you can do that? Let your emotions control something, just let it out, don't hold it in.
Just slow it down a second, you're thinking to much!
I don't know about you but I believe that things happen for a reason, this may be rough right now but like I said, it will all make sense one day, it's preparing you for something.