pretty cool i think someone has it as avatar
gunn if you kill a fly just cause is anoying thats evidently unethical and if you set a precedent an kill all flies you destroy the world
i can be good for this forum i only attacked once cause someone said famines were good
notice how even s14 change atitude towards me and in general, non violence is very powerfull and can change a violent person
my intend is finding an enlightening easy exercise so the whole world can get enlightened and being poor evil people able to see the consequences of their acts end suffering
i dont do it for the rest im selfish, i like beauty and want to be sorrounded by such, a bad news ruins my day, i dont watch or read no news
the exercise i designed to syncronize brain hemispheres works but only not smoking at least not that much, i manage to see with my peripheral view as with central for 3 times during 1 second doing this exercise NO smoking during 10 days, my sight and hearing improved so much but after 10 days i went smoking back and the exercise become useless, today i just smoked 3 fags
in fact i think i may succed in my objective to end suffering of this world to my pleasement via a simple enlightening exercise
isnt an enlightened person like an angel and wouldnt then be the 1st if i succed?
then this that happened right after my second nervous breakdown what if was not an hallucination what if i can get the whole world enlightened and start heaven in earth being the first angel who would be lucifer from latin light bringer:
i was in a chat recovering of my 2nd nervous breakdown and the paranoias of timetravelers chasing me having some chat when someone said to me dont you think being god infinite love he will forgive you?
next day i asked what would you read lucifers rebellion or the neverending story? a guy named michael said lucifers reb to which other person argued you shouldnt have told him that to which michael argued misteries are to be explained not studied
i read the book next day and i felt so identified with lucifer fighting for the right of all souls to live forever and not be obliterated if evil that i entered right the way in the same chat saying im begining to think im lucifers reincarantion , as i had typed im be... a guy named magico said to me what does make you think so, i was amazed how coul he have known if i hadnt finished nor push enter, so i said becasue i think i know why i did it, because of being too much in love with a girl i was thinking
then i was gonna say i trust divine justice(whatever may come) then as i had type i tr... he said DONT DOUBT IT
next day i was listening bon jovi and as he screeamed im not gonna live forever the radio made a MEEEEEC sound
this was obviously hallucinations but notice how after all im a smart guy and my subconcious built a pretty neat and kind of solid story seetting the hallucinations clues rigth and correctly in time
but i think if i said well it cant be is IMPOSIBLE that would be false and i would not react accordinly to reality my sanity with my hallucinations resides on giving them the value they deserve they most probably are hallucinations and mean nothing but i must be open to what if they are not false
so if theyre tru ill keep searching for the enlightening achiavable by anyone and watching steroegrams and geometric patterns like the one mention in this topic and if false i always could writte the story my subcouncious is hintingg me into
sorry if my madness ofends you but this is the longest conversation(more than one minute) i had this week and isnt this a place to socialize?