pretty cool i think someone has it as avatar

gunn if you kill a fly just cause is anoying thats evidently unethical and if you set a precedent an kill all flies you destroy the world

i can be good for this forum i only attacked once cause someone said famines were good

notice how even s14 change atitude towards me and in general, non violence is very powerfull and can change a violent person

my intend is finding an enlightening easy exercise so the whole world can get enlightened and being poor evil people able to see the consequences of their acts end suffering

i dont do it for the rest im selfish, i like beauty and want to be sorrounded by such, a bad news ruins my day, i dont watch or read no news

the exercise i designed to syncronize brain hemispheres works but only not smoking at least not that much, i manage to see with my peripheral view as with central for 3 times during 1 second doing this exercise NO smoking during 10 days, my sight and hearing improved so much but after 10 days i went smoking back and the exercise become useless, today i just smoked 3 fags

in fact i think i may succed in my objective to end suffering of this world to my pleasement via a simple enlightening exercise

isnt an enlightened person like an angel and wouldnt then be the 1st if i succed?

then this that happened right after my second nervous breakdown what if was not an hallucination what if i can get the whole world enlightened and start heaven in earth being the first angel who would be lucifer from latin light bringer:

i was in a chat recovering of my 2nd nervous breakdown and the paranoias of timetravelers chasing me having some chat when someone said to me dont you think being god infinite love he will forgive you?

next day i asked what would you read lucifers rebellion or the neverending story? a guy named michael said lucifers reb to which other person argued you shouldnt have told him that to which michael argued misteries are to be explained not studied

i read the book next day and i felt so identified with lucifer fighting for the right of all souls to live forever and not be obliterated if evil that i entered right the way in the same chat saying im begining to think im lucifers reincarantion , as i had typed im be... a guy named magico said to me what does make you think so, i was amazed how coul he have known if i hadnt finished nor push enter, so i said becasue i think i know why i did it, because of being too much in love with a girl i was thinking

then i was gonna say i trust divine justice(whatever may come) then as i had type i tr... he said DONT DOUBT IT

next day i was listening bon jovi and as he screeamed im not gonna live forever the radio made a MEEEEEC sound

this was obviously hallucinations but notice how after all im a smart guy and my subconcious built a pretty neat and kind of solid story seetting the hallucinations clues rigth and correctly in time

but i think if i said well it cant be is IMPOSIBLE that would be false and i would not react accordinly to reality my sanity with my hallucinations resides on giving them the value they deserve they most probably are hallucinations and mean nothing but i must be open to what if they are not false

so if theyre tru ill keep searching for the enlightening achiavable by anyone and watching steroegrams and geometric patterns like the one mention in this topic and if false i always could writte the story my subcouncious is hintingg me into

sorry if my madness ofends you but this is the longest conversation(more than one minute) i had this week and isnt this a place to socialize?

ive re read my posts and seems more than im crazy that you are trying to convince me im crazy

i read once why would they do it in the staged world:

youre crazy so your love is madness and therefore false

in a way you are making shi+ of all mydreams and wishes

you are not like listen you have mental problems cause of this and that and i think you should change those things

you are more onto you are sick get out of here

well i respect you and if you were born a bad person its not your fault and your little tries into the good should be appreciated just look at s14 how he sometimes though he is not excelletn at least he is a little good

free will is not so big you could ask hitler to be good but litle by litle less bad must be the way free will works he could have ended an excellent person

so i dont mind you being a moron with me in a way is not your fault and i feel bad for you, but i think that can cahnge litle by litle

i could be crazy as hell but being a good person i do much less harm that perfectly sane but mean and rotten

im not that alone:

http://www.mishabittleston.com/artists/bridget_riley/

and why did it happen to me when i was 6 years old?

so just why i think odd im not wellcome

i fail to see the difference between my ot and other ot

for example this one of my lift alteres my perception if i concentrate on it:

http://i40.photobucket.com/albums/e222/raaaid/dizzy.jpg

is it "normal", like there are hypnotic images or is it just me

btw 1st time i noticed this i was 6 years old with the symetric pattern of my wall, now with that very same wall im learning to control this mood XD

why am i crazy i clearly say its a fiction

wow thanks i was feeling awfull cause yesterday i got really drunk and almost go to a club

i was expecting someone to hit me on the head to dont feel the pain in the foot

im a time traveller from the C century after the year of light when the alchemic exercise with the view was made public and the whole humanity got enlightened inj a short period

we have a serious troble with the discoverer of this alchemic exercise it lead humanity to enlightening but in the c century he has rebelled and intends to destroy our system

we achived heaven on earth we are not gonna let a pusilanime destroy our paradise just cause he allied with the baddies and avoide their deserved obliteration

but the problem is that we can not change the fact he is the discoverer of what allowed humanity achive enelightenment and build heaven

an enlightened person can timetravel with the mind but our agents sent to all times of past to destroy his line fail a paradox happens and that person has no freee will to destroy the continuity of a line

we are in a bad position cause the same person that started heaven intends to destroy it

we stopped trying to destroy him now our agents can slightly influence events for example crossing his way and interrupting a crucial thought

the year of light hasnt ocuured and we are on our way to switching him as the 1st angel leading better people than him to discover the alchemical exercise that brings knwoldege

edit:

our success in avoiding him finding enlightenemnt is achived thanks on him being a serious smoker so the exercise is useless, well keep him smoking till his end, we can not let him go out with a girl so he doesnt quit without paradox, he was about to go out with a waitress but we briefed the owner to fire her, hahaha

Last edited by lerts, Sat, 25 Oct 2008 13:51.

ha youre crazier than me
:elefant:

has to be with light or sound

well anyway this thread has got my interest back with my improved exercise of the cross

as i explained you i permanently breath through my left nostril having the right one always blocked

with my exercise im gonna try to reverse nostrils

myself what im amazed is how people is willing to tolerate unjustice if threaten

when i read in the old testament you had to denounce even your familiars if they worked on sunday so they would be lapidated i could stand no more and threw the familiar book away in disgust

so the nazi god of judeochristians and muslims is accepted by fear of eternal dannation or is it by these people being nazis themselves?

why nobody raises the voice saying people is worshipping a sick god who nukes homosexuals and giants

for exmplae the exercise i developed from that link its amazing and its a good motivation since it only works if you dont smoke

making the exercise while not smoking in 1 week i manged for 1 second 3 times to see with my peripheric view as with centrral so i didnt have to turn the eyes to look to a side

also my sight and hearing improved so much but i went back on smoking and the exercise become useless

i dont want to live my life working eating sleeping and dumping i want to try at least to improve this prison world whre theres so many people suffering so much

i dont want to become so sane i become impasible to this

yes i understand before helping the world i should help my self maybe you are right

but im a very creative person, i must focus my creativity onto something, for example this cross exercise i improved it by putting it in a transparent sheet with the circles eye distance with which is extremly easy to see the cross

im just doing something that might be usefull and entertains me i dont think i should be away from odd things jsut cause im a little crazy

i think best exercises are those with view or hearing in stereo

before when i was more crazy which this forum helped to changed i believed true stereo or holophonic sound(in which you can tell location of instruments) was suppressed due to working this hemispheres coordination and made you smarter

the thing are exercises that makes the brian work in stereo( the two hemispheres at the time)

for example myself i always breath permanently through my left nostril which proves i have a strong right dominance which you can tell by my creative posts

this is my 2nd thread in 9 days before you criticize me:

i cant stand this world so i want at least to try to change it, before i was on free energy now i think the best way to help the world would be making people more aware

concious can proccess 12 characters per second subconcious 1 trillion so it can be improved a litle

so far i think what must be done is an exercise that makes both hemispheres work in synchronization like this:

http://www.web-us.com/BRAIN/Vi ... Hemispheric_Dominance.htm

http://www.eyetricks.com/3dstereo.htm

do you know of anything else which can help on my objective which is not drugs?

well maybe you are right im not atheist im agnostic but now i believe the world is real and if god exists he can only be a sadist

humm gays nuked giants obliterated by deluge and phanatics willing to murder their sons taken to the pantheon

well i feel totally dpressed about this but at least i sound sane dont you think so

god being evil is the same than no god , just a more powerfull sadistic being

like a cruel kid burning ants with a lens, of course the kid is no god but some ant might consider him so

nope im not convinced in fact maybe due to this forum im swithcing from agnostic believing if god exist extreme evil is staged to atheist believing theres no god and if he exists he is evil

i heard of a disease that happen clicking a lot with mouse in an arm nerve

i think kkeping clicking all time could be bad

but if i keep accelerator in the keyboard i have both hands busy so icant scratch myself

haha im willing to admitt god is a sadist in fact yavhe is but that would make him a lesser fightable god and i have no fear of eternal damnation and willing to fight a nazi that exterminated the giants with the deluge just cause they were ugly not to mention nuking sodoma

i think you are pretending not to understand:

5000 people right by mi house

they appear live on tv and exactly at that moment they yelled as hell as they knew they were appearing live on tv

how did they know if i searching for it could find no way they could know they went live?

no becky i can bend to a solid a argument

my point is people knew they went live on tv with no posible way to having known, even the presentator was cluelless to this point

this is just a tiny example of the many suspicious things that the world is not what it seems

my suspicious is that when you try to do something horrible like slaying a child god just doesnt let you to by limiting your free will

i give this a chance of being of 0.00000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001

but still posible and for me the posibility of poor evil humans having a free limited will and god existing is this same extremely small posibility

if god allows sexual abuse of children he can count on me fighting him forever but god=bad is a contradiction it would just be a beatable demiurge with amazing powers for us just ants but still human

my experience is of a pleasent life with mild sorrow but no suffering i have no direct prove god allows extreme evil just what the news tell

but waht if news are faked the world staged and theres nobody suffering famines

what if i dare to be trully agnostic and give the slight cahnce of a just god existing which for me implyes so many horrible things we hear are false

"is it something conjured in your brain from pieces of fact that leads to a probable explanation?"

for example:

my believe in an staged world is factual:

when alonso won his 1st cahmpionship being from my city there was a huge celeb right by my house

i was watching it on tv and suddenly when people went live on tv they started yelling at hell, i could hear them right by my house

i asked my mother how do they know they go live she didnt know then the presentator appeared live right by my house on tv saying i dont knwo how they know they go live

i went out looking for something like a giant screen but could find no explanation

then i would ask my friends and all of them knew there was a giant screen

it was not so giant since i didnt see it even looking for it nor the presenatator knew

so should i consider this an hallucination or as a proof that SHOULD any normal person be suspicious of being cheated by the world

so i have a solid proof that the world maybe staged with wich god might posibly exist because extreme evil might well be staged

im having my meds like a good kid and i should have been finished with it on 3 months but realizing myself im not well i decided to keep them on unlimited

i talk this things with my sister who is a psichiatrist and tells me the meds

but there are some things i dont feel like telling anybody and i just dare to do in a forum where im anonimous

but as you have seen in my thread a public analisis on myself lead to so much flaming it got locked

so thats what ive been trying to do share my ideas with common people to realize of my mistakes

but this is probably a mistake since people is cruel and they will laugh and humiliate the crazy instead of trying to help him

and im not that crazy ive been far worse now im just odd

a prove im not crazy is that im not convinced of my ideas and im open to dialogue

"hesitation to believe in its existence would become a mark of eccentricity and entitle the doubter to the attentions of the psychiatrist in an enlightened age"

thats exactly what happens to me i HESITATE to believe what im told as truth since if god existed being good would be intolerable