Feeling with ya. Going through a pretty hard time myself right now, at least concerning working.
I am a freelance journalist/PR-author for two companies right now. Sounds great on paper. I can do what I want at the times I want. Problem is though, I miss out on the best things on being an Austrian: no health insurance or pension plan (if I wouldn't care for that myself), no 13th and 14th wage (heck, in my profession I'd even get a 15th if I'd score a permanent employment... But it's about as likely to happen as winning the lottery).
Worst of all, due to the financial crisis, I haven't got any work to do since june, meaning no income whatsoever. And with me being a freelencer for years (I ought to have been on perma for at least 6 months in the last two years) I have no claim for unemployment compensation...
I am pretty much on a constant search for a perma job since the beginning of the year, as those developements were already showing, but I haven't got anything other than dozens of "Sorry" for an answer. That's especially frustrating as thrice, I was one of the two last applicants for the job.
Again, today I await the treaded call back from a company if they take me or not. I sit at my PC, staring at the phone, not daring to call them myself as I feel I will hear another "no", even though I had quite a good job interview. I'm sick I could almost vomit.
My problem seems to be thta I am too well educated for lowly jobs, but I lack the experience to get into the jobs I'm trained for. Right now, most employers are looking for people with multiple years job experience who will work for next to no money. If you fail at one of those two, you're out of the game.
Especially since I'm really low on cash by now. If my girlfriend wouldn't support me, I would have problems getting food on my table every day (unless I returned to my parents)
A "yes" would instantly wipe out my problems (allthough it might need more than that for my bank account to show something other than red). A "no" on the other hand would leave me quite without perspective for the moment. That stress is starting to take it's toll on me, and on my relationship.
I don't know how much frustration I will have to take though to defeat my worst enemy: my pride. I haven't yet really considered taking a job that is beneath me just to get money, as I not only don't want to spend most of my day in a job I hate, but I also fear that doing so might block me from taking opportunities that may still arise.
So, joining becky, if anyone has a job as a Journalist or PR-Manager, just mail me. Scawen, perhaps?